Saturday, August 1, 2015

Is anyone else hooked on period dramas?

Do most women like period dramas? I love Downton Abbey and have recently discovered The Paradise (I know it's been cancelled after season 2) which I am also hooked on, as well as other shows and movies set in similar periods. Hell if you throw in time travel as well (e.g. Somewhere in Time) I'm definitely hooked! Of course my hubby isn't a fan of any of them. Except Outlander, he watches that with me ... then again that's time travel to the 1700s and has a lot more fighting action, LOL. I have always had a fascination with the mid-1800s to the early 20th century. Maybe I had a past life then? I like to collect antiques of no particular value just because they are old.

I have a 1902 Singer sewing machine and an old wooden carpet sweeper, probably from the same period or older, and vintage photos of my great grandparents on the wall. I had an antique radio and old wooden filing cabinet among other things back home, which unfortunately couldn't travel to Australia with me. I thought maybe that fascination is why I like these types of shows, but it seems many women are into them as well. Fewer men, it would seem. What do you think ... do you like these types of shows?

Damn you Mother Nature!

Damn you indeed. At an age when I don't want or need your visits anymore you are determined to visit even more frequently, though thankfully your stay is shorter. I really have no idea what to expect with PCOS as I near menopause age so if any of you with PCOS have been through the change please enlighten me. Still I was 72.2 kg yesterday so still in the 150s but only just. Not today, back up just a bit. So much for getting closer to goal before I go. Ah well ... fortunately though in just a day or two I should drop back down again. I'm not going to do another weigh in until just before we leave. Fingers crossed!

Wednesday, July 29, 2015

Did the rainforest walk again ...

Today I weighed in at 72.2 (159.2 lb) so fluctuating as I expected but happily still in the 150s. I'm not worried, I'm happy.

Today we walked Minnamurra Rainforest again. I was probably 20 pounds heavier last time, but back then I was still running. I am walking most days but haven't run in a while and there sure was a difference in my endurance. I remember being thrilled last time that despite the steep inclines I didn't have to stop on a bench to rest. Today I did. Just once, and just for a few minutes after the steepest part of the climb but I knew then that while it wasn't doing much for my weight loss, running was surely building my endurance. It was still a great workout today and a beautiful day to see the falls.

Tomorrow I have a doctor's appointment to check my ears. I have randomly been getting earaches now and then for the last year or so ... not frequent but when I do get them they are quite painful. I used to get them as a young child but not since, so why now? Anyway previously I was told to use a nasal decongestant as they can come on if your nose is blocked. He also said it can happen with TMJ and I have very rarely had jaw pains but not often enough so he doesn't think it's that. Tomorrow he wants to rule out an inner ear infection. Barring that he said there might be nothing else he can do for me. It's only a concern now because the last time it came on I was driving on a steep incline and it was quite painful so I worry the plane taking off might bring it on. I got some earplanes which I have never used before, so hopefully those help.

On Sunday we're having family over for a combination birthday and farewell party. Both my husband and I will celebrate our birthdays while were in the States, so it will be nice to have everyone over before we go. I can't believe in just six days I will be on the plane home ...

Sunday, July 26, 2015

I'm in the 150s! 8 pounds from goal!

Yeah, I'll probably be posting more frequently on the lead up to my overseas vacation, being as I'm on leave from work now. I dreamed of being at goal when I go and today I am one step closer.

I am 71.8 kg (158.29 lb) this morning. That means I've lost 58.5 kg (128.97 lb) and have just 3.8 kg (8.36 lb) to go. Seriously? I'm in the 150s?! How freaking cool is that?!

I know I will continue to fluctuate and may not hit goal before I go but for now I am just going to bask in the glory that is the 150s. Have a fabulous day everyone, I know I will.

Saturday, July 25, 2015

I just bought new jeans ...

OK I  know I just posted this morning with my loss this week, but I've just come back from shopping and I had to share.  My size 16 jeans have been quite baggy on me for awhile, I mean I could pull them off without unbuttoning. So I tried the size 14 a week or two ago and they fit great, but I thought I'd hold out and buy some while I'm back in the States. Well I just couldn't handle the bagginess anymore so I went back, but for whatever reason I grabbed a 14 and a 12. No way was I gonna fit into the 12, it was just for the hell of it.

So The sales girl popped by after a minute and said how are the 14s going? I said well actually I started with the 12. "Oh, and how are those going?" Well ... I got them on! I mean they were tight, but I had them on! "Well can you sit, are they comfortable?"  I sat on the bench. I bent over as if tying my shoes. I squatted down. They were tight, definitely ... but not uncomfortable.  She suggested I buy the 12s because these jeans tend to loosen up after a few wears, so the 14s might soon be too loose, especially as I am still going down in size. I thought about it for a bit. These jeans are $70 so I don't want them to be too loose in a month. I can fit in the 12s, but how long can I wear them?

I decided to get the 12s. I've had them on for a couple of hours now and they are still comfortable.  I feel so good I thought I'd post some new photos.  So here you go! Two years ago at 287 lbs vs today at 160. What do you think?

126.7 pounds down; just 10.5 to go!

Let the vacation begin!!  Yes, I have finished work and am now off for seven weeks -- 7 WEEKS! Yikes, that is a long time but I bet it will go fast.

Let's get this week's stats out of the way -- I weighed in at 72.8 kg (160.5 lb) which is a loss of 0.7 kg (1.54 lb) from last week, and 57.5 kg (126.7 lb) overall.  I am just 4.8 kg (10.5 lb) from my goal! Seriously, I have never gotten this close before ... well, since 1984 anyway!

So now I have 10 days off before we fly back to the States for the month of August. I am both excited and anxious about it. It's been nine years since I've seen friends and family. I'm a bit nervous! I may be much smaller but I'm also much older! It's a long flight. I have so many people to squeeze in a visit while I'm there (my time will be divided between three states).

And of course there's the temptations I've already spoken of -- the food. I've had no problem eating right here in Australia, and it's not like we don't have tempting junk foods here, we surely do. Obesity in Australia is fast catching up with the US. But some favourites from back home are not available here, so the temptation will be higher. But here's the thing. My stomach is not going to tolerate a sudden return to crap eating, it just won't. And I no longer want to eat that way. So while I'm likely to try some things I haven't had access to in years, I do not think it will be difficult to make these be just occasional indulgences. I certainly can't and won't be eating such things every day. Hell even if I could eat that way again, I don't want to be that person anymore, and it's not worth the 20 pounds I'd be likely to regain.

Another thing that might be hard -- I'm used to weighing myself every morning. I have done so for the last two years. Since there will be changes in my eating just by virtue of being away from home if nothing else, I hope I will be able to keep an eye on it, but I may not be able to weigh every day. I have been doing that so long I wonder how I'll cope if I can't satisfy the compulsion to weigh every day.  It's probably good that I start getting into the habit of weighing weekly but I figured that wouldn't be until after I reach goal. I guess since I'm unlikely to reach goal before I go, and I am likely to have some regain when I get back, I will just have to get back on track with ADF when I return until I do reach goal. Because as I've said previously, that IS going to happen this year. I am that determined I know it is. There is no other option for me.  My Happy Scale app is telling me I could be there in September -- that's probably not going to happen due to this trip. But it will happen, that much I know.

I'm told maintenance can be harder than losing it. I guess I'll find out. And I may not even maintain at 68 kg (150 lb). I am only 5'4" tall. Truthfully I should probably be between 57-59 kg (125-130 lb). I got there once in 1984 when I was just 21 years old but it didn't last long and I've never been back. I'm in my 50s now so I don't know how realistic it is to aim for that. At 287 pounds, I was thinking 150 was a reasonable goal, but until I get there I don't know whether I'll be happy there or want to keep going. Anyway, that's a problem for another day. For now, I'm just going to relax and enjoy my life of leisure for the next 10 days until we board that flight.  Have a great weekend everyone!

Saturday, July 18, 2015

So close to goal I can taste it!

So I ended the week at 73.5 kg (162.04 lb) which brings my total loss to 56.8 kg (125.22 lb). I seriously cannot believe I am 5.5 kg (12.13 lb) from my goal weight right now. This weight loss journey has been two years so far, and there were some thrilling successes and frustrating stalls along the way but isn't that what the path to success looks like? It's not a straight line unfortunately, it zigs, it zags and it's full of curves, but I am determined and I will get there.

One more week of work and then I'm on leave for seven weeks. I'm so excited to be going home to the States and I know there will be temptations there ... foods I have missed so much that just are not available in Australia (Chicago deep dish pizza and Reuben sandwiches come to mind) but whatever happens I will reach my goal this year. If I come back from America heavier than when I left I know ADF will help me get back on track and cross that finish line. Nothing is going to stop me.

This week two people who have not seen me in a few months said I looked amazing ... it sure felt good to hear that. One said my face has changed so much, and she probably last saw me when I was just 10-15 pounds heavier. That amount wasn't so noticeable when I was over 200 pounds but now it seems it makes quite a difference. I look in the mirror and I can see my mother now. People have said I looked like her but when I was obese I didn't see it so much. Now I do and I can't wait for family and friends back home to see me again. I have lost weight (and regained it) several times in the past, and when I was last home about nine years ago I was probably about 90 kg (200 lb), not the 130 kg (287 lb) I found myself at two years ago. I don't think I've weighed this little since the late 80s. So if I haven't reached goal before I go it won't matter at all, it will still be a big change for them.

We've had such a cold spell here this week ... there was snow just an hour's drive from me! I have not seen snow in 12 years and I like it that way! It feels sort of like Christmas in July. I'll be going home to the last month of summer and coming back to spring -- it's usually is quite nice here by September so hopefully I can kiss the rest of winter goodbye very soon.